I know why…

Why am I here?

Why do i matter?

Who says anything matters..

Im going through a time where I honestly feel like I don’t want to be here. I say that to myself often. I would never commit suicide or anything. I’m not unhappy, I just don’t understand sometimes.

I try to push it away by saying, “God has a reason for everything, he has a plan, he is taking care of us.” All which I believe with all my heart, I just do not know his plan yet and sometimes I forget those reasons.

If it were up to me I would choose to not be on this earth, like never created.

Truthfully I am afraid of the future.

I hate the way this world is, the way some people are, cold hearted and really only care about themselves and what they want. And I only imagine things getting worst. What I see matters to this world is basically status and money. In order to live an okay life you need money, but you’ll have to deal with the stress that comes with it, like spending all our waking hours working.

One way or another you have to work.

School is work, networking is work, building a resume is work, keeping a routine is work. Work causes stress when you add pressure. And most people have the pressure of NEEDING to work to live a comfortable life, not choosing to work.

I believe this is what stresses me out. I’m only 21, I’m not set to choose if I want to work or not. The government says I have to work,  I have to pay bills, and if I want to have a place to live, eat, or wear something decent, I have to work, Otherwise we have the option to be homeless- tough choice.

Was I really born to wake up everyday to go to school, to work, and to sleep and do it again over and over and in between to fill time, find some meaningless entertainment, like a movie that I would’t even remember in a month.. I highly doubt it.

Everyone wants to be safe, happy, loved, peaceful, joyful, energetic and basically alive with no worries.

As I put things into perspective, I notice that I am really pressured. Pressured to keep up with time, to behave a certain way, to conform to societies ways, to have an education if I ever want to make it anywhere (even to help people you need a piece of paper with stamps and a signature), I have to work because I need to pay for that education, — Stress. I cant get a great job until I get an education, and I cant get a good education until I get a great job.

I can’t buy a house until I get a great job and great credit, and Its hard to get a great job if I dont have a great education. And great credit comes when you are willing to spend and then pay them back with interest.

This system sucks, it works like a trap, the government is cruel, and the police force isn’t all serving and protecting the way they are suppossed to.

I hear stories about people getting killed all the time, stories of people trusting the police and becoming a victim instead.

I believe we have a false sense of freedom. When you try to be dfferent and speak up, you can get killed, shut down, shoved into a prison, who knows…  disorder is disliked.

I say why was I born, and why am I still here..

I can really only answer that in one way.

Jesus.

He is the way, the truth and the life.

you ever heard “The truth will set you free”? Well Jesus is the truth.

The only thing that can truly set me free is Jesus.

So he gives me hope and stregnth, and love, and joy, and peace all over again even when this world is terrible, the bright light in him restores hope to people everyday.

I know why I am here; I matter because God created me the way I am, with a purpose and a plan.

  • Jeremiah 1:5, NIV Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart.
  • Revelation 4:11, NKJV You are worthy, O Lord, To receive glory and honor and power; For You created all things, And by Your will they exist and were created.
  • Matthew 37-39, ESV And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.
  • Matthew 5:16, NIV Let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
  • Ecclesiastes 12:13, ESV The end of the matter; all has been heard. Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.Micah 6:8, ESV He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?
  • Psalm 86:12, ESV I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with my whole heart, and I will glorify your name forever.
  • Jeremiah 29:11, NIV For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.tells me so.. 
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Proverbs 20

Read this chapter to learn some lessons and advice that God gives in the bible.
If only you would have known:

20 Wine produces mockers; alcohol leads to brawls.
    Those led astray by drink cannot be wise.
2 The king’s fury is like a lion’s roar;
    to rouse his anger is to risk your life.
3 Avoiding a fight is a mark of honor;
    only fools insist on quarreling.
4 Those too lazy to plow in the right season
    will have no food at the harvest.
5 Though good advice lies deep within the heart,
    a person with understanding will draw it out.
6 Many will say they are loyal friends,
    but who can find one who is truly reliable?
7 The godly walk with integrity;
    blessed are their children who follow them.
8 When a king sits in judgment, he weighs all the evidence,
    distinguishing the bad from the good.
9 Who can say, “I have cleansed my heart;
    I am pure and free from sin”?
10 False weights and unequal measures—
    the Lord detests double standards of every kind.
11 Even children are known by the way they act,
    whether their conduct is pure, and whether it is right.
12 Ears to hear and eyes to see—
    both are gifts from the Lord.
13 If you love sleep, you will end in poverty.
    Keep your eyes open, and there will be plenty to eat!
14 The buyer haggles over the price, saying, “It’s worthless,”
    then brags about getting a bargain!
15 Wise words are more valuable
    than much gold and many rubies.
16 Get security from someone who guarantees a stranger’s debt.
    Get a deposit if he does it for foreigners.[b]
17 Stolen bread tastes sweet,
    but it turns to gravel in the mouth.
18 Plans succeed through good counsel;
    don’t go to war without wise advice.
19 A gossip goes around telling secrets,
    so don’t hang around with chatterers.
20 If you insult your father or mother,
    your light will be snuffed out in total darkness.
21 An inheritance obtained too early in life
    is not a blessing in the end.
22 Don’t say, “I will get even for this wrong.”
    Wait for the Lord to handle the matter.
23 The Lord detests double standards;
    he is not pleased by dishonest scales.
24 The Lord directs our steps,
    so why try to understand everything along the way?
25 Don’t trap yourself by making a rash promise to God
    and only later counting the cost.
26 A wise king scatters the wicked like wheat,
    then runs his threshing wheel over them.
27 The Lord’s light penetrates the human spirit,
    exposing every hidden motive.
28 Unfailing love and faithfulness protect the king;
    his throne is made secure through love.
29 The glory of the young is their strength;
    the gray hair of experience is the splendor of the old.
30 Physical punishment cleanses away evil;
    such discipline purifies the heart.
-Proverbs 20

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