Memory Lane . If only I knew what the future holds

Drafted 4 moths ago, and just writing my heart out. I felt like this often but thankfully now I can say i feel better, more in control of my life, and like God is sitting right next to me pulling me forward. I am happier than I was a few months ago, and so I am really grateful to be able to look back and see that I was so lost just a few months ago and already God has given me a hope to hold on to….

 

If only I knew what the future holds.

I wish and hope and pray  that a lot of good and fortune would come. But honestly I’m afraid.

I fear trying because I am afraid to fail. I need to remember that not trying is worse than failure. Continue reading

James 4:10

GOD IS READY

Sometimes we mess up and instead of correcting the mistake we try to cover it up, putting ourselves in a false state which we feel the urge to maintain for fear of the truth crushing us. We serve a God who wants to restore and not restrain don’t be afraid of what people think based on the truth. It’s you and God that’s important.

“Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up” (James 4:10) God is ready!

 

Day 06: Something that excites you and fills you with joy

Many things excite me !  For instance Blogging, Learning, Reading,  Jogging, Music, Make up, Fashion, Food ..                                       Choose one? NOT Possible.

Life can be very exciting if you learn to live it.  I guess what really excites me and fills me with joy is experiencing some of everything life has to offer. 🙂

Ever had the feeling you can do so much more with your life, or you’re missing out on so many things. You may have heard this many times before but this is just a reminder; You only get 1 life  to live so live it the best you can!

” The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience “- Eleanor Roosevelt

Psalm 91:1-2

  1 He that dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.  – Psalms 91:1-2

Repeating this verse every day and night makes me feel protected.

A few years ago I had trouble sleeping in the dark ; no I was not a little kid but teenagers could have fears also. I wasn’t afraid of the darkness but I was afraid of all the things my imagination came up with. I’d see shadows on the walls and feel like someone was watching me, I  wouldn’t be able to sleep next to anyone because if I saw their face in the dark It would freak me out. I’d see things that weren’t there, like someone moving or the person staring at me or smiling at me. No I’m not hallucinating, at least I don’t think so, I just have a really big imagination. I love my imagination because it make me creative, I could even make my own movie in my head; hear it, see it and smell it.

Until I started saying this prayer, nothing helped get passed the fears.

I notice that when I forget to say it I have nightmares and they’re vivid. They’re also weird, when I fell asleep i don’t notice so my mind is awake and I’m thinking but I’m also dreaming. I can’t move because I’m asleep but I start thinking ” hopefully someone will walk in my room so that I can wake up”. I see people walking around me in the dream and  it jumps to different settings and all this time my mind is acknowledging everything that’s going on, but I can’t wake myself up. Strange, I know.

I chose this verse today because last night I had a moment again where I felt like I wasn’t alone in my room and it made me jump and I said the verse so quick that I don’t even know if I said it right. And I just wanted to let people know that God is always looking out for us but as much as I believe in God I believe in the other side. They’re always around trying to make us fall and when I say this verse they have no choice but to go away because I just gave God all my trust and I believe with all my heart he protects me.

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Day 3 – 2 Timothy 1:7

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” – 2 Timothy 1:7

It’s easy to get caught up in our own fears but we’re not meant to be. We don’t have to worry about the future or be scared when something happens in this world because when you trust God you learn to be confident in him and that he’ll always do what’s best for you. When we have fear, we have a certain kind of thought process that results in that fear. We will only have fear when we have certain negative thoughts about ourselves and our circumstances. If I think about my own weaknesses and limitations, then I will fear that I cannot do something. But if I think about Jesus and His power in us, then I will be confident in Him. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” – Philippians 4:13